I not Jacob

My mentor tell me to read the bk of Jacob. She sees the resemblance between me and Jacob.
She sees me wrestling w/ the angel (or God).
But I cannot see the point.

I don't wrestle. I am struggling.
Struggling w/ meself.

I do not have the persistence that Jacob has to wreatle and hold on till dawn.
I would rather take an easy way out. I am burning out.

Face it and eat it. this is something far better than confrontation.
Face it is not equal to confrontation.
Confrontation needs a lot of energy.
If I not escaping, I am facing it already or accepting it already.